cranky

Today i am feeling cranky!! i have been rather moody the last few days and i couldn't for the life of me figure out why? then last i was talking to my friends about how i was feeling moody. One jokingly said " you need medicine for that " That made me laugh :) then another one of my friends looked up and said " It's October" and a light went off in my head, October 16th will be the 14th anniversary of my dads death! That explains my moodiness HELLO how could that of slipped my mind.

Well today i have been really really cranky! It has been many many years since my Daddy pasted and each year it becomes easier to deal with, well easier is not the right word it is never really easy but it is less heavy. i guess this year it was at least light enough for me to forget it was coming ( that's a guilt trip waiting to happen ) or perhaps i just pushed out of my mind. who knows? I guess i am being a downer today, oh, here, i will share a happy memory of my daddy that will make me feel better:

let's see, hmmmmm, i know, i will list a few things i loved about him:
1. he gave the best hugs because he had a squishy belly
2.he used to laugh out loud while reading the Sunday comics
3.I was without a doubt a daddy's girl
4.Whenever he went out to the store he would bring me back something. when i was about 14 he started to not know what to get his teenage daughter so he bought me a fork, yup, that's right, a fork. It had a pretty handle and he thought i would like it. While it is an odd gift i have used it every day to eat dinner since. Actually it may be the perfect gift, It will last forever, i won't out grow it, It is useful, and i can pass it on if i ever have children.

well on that happy note i will go now