i want to scream.........

well lets see work kind of sucks right now. why is it that the people who are reasonable, non judgemental, flexible always seem to get all the crap thrown at them. I also hate that when someone else makes a stupid decision other people ( ME ) get stuck living with the bad consequences.

let me back tract for a moment. a year ago we interviewed a woman for a part time position in the room next to mine, My feeling was that she wasn't capable of doing the job and that if i had to spend more than 10 minuets alone with her i would rip all of my hair out. well the woman who would be working with her said she would be just fine in her room . so they hired her and she has proven to be incompetent. so, they MOVED HER TO MY ROOM!!!!!!!!!! i said no don't want her!!!! they encouraged me to give it a try ( they didn't give me a choice ) so it i talked to my other co-teacher and we decided to have an open mind she couldn't possibly be as bad as everybody was saying. the first two weeks weren't bad at all then it went down hill fast. She has significant limitations, he's forgetful, pessimistic, spacey, nosey, gossipy, doesn't know how to clean-up after lunch or play with the children no matter how many times i explain to her what she should do or examples of things to try just not capable. So because the idiot in the room next door has no judgement or standards for hiring i now have a crappy teacher in my room! I hate when other people's fuck-ups mess up my day!

yup, i'm talking about food again.....

this is the season of food! as I sit here writing this i can smell the turkey pot pie that my mom is making from scratch from the leftovers mmmmmmm

as you can tell i love good food. The challenge this year is to not over do it and to focus on eating things that aren't really bad for me and to not gorge myself with sweets. since i do enjoy eating healthy things it shouldn't be too hard to find stuff that is good for me when i go out, the problem is once i get a taste of something that is bad for me i want to eat all of it!

so this is my mission: to find recipes for yummy things that are either healthy or not bad for me ( low calories, fat, high nutrients ) there are a lot of really yummy things to be found if only we take the time to look and taste. Later today i plan on making tomato soup from scratch, mmmmmm oh how good that will taste with a nice piece of bread mmmmm o.k enough of that i should go before i go into a food comma!

who doesn't love a four day weekend

well this was a short work week for me. I guess i am one of the Lucky ones, i don't have to work on Friday and i do know that a lot of people do have to work that day. Today was an easy day, I only had 6 kids in my room and they all went home early. The last one left at 4:30 I don't get off until 5 so leaving a half hour early was nice! and the traffic wasn't bad at all! well even though this was an easy day i am feeling very tired tonight so i think i will take a nice hot shower, curl up with a hot cup of tea and go to bed early. I will wake up tomorrow to the aroma of a roasting turkey MMMMMMM.

food glorious food!!

ahhh, food oh how i love good food. I love thanksgiving because it is a holiday that is completely dedicated to cooking and eating food with friends and family MMMMMMMMMMM. Let me tell you my mom can put together a really yummy meal she is a very good cook.

speaking of eating with friends one of my friends invited me over to hang out tomorrow night and see their new place of course there will be food involved. My friend described to me over the phone what we would be having and i have been drooling for the past few days just thinking about it. my friend is going to cook a pepper jack chicken ranch sandwich on a toasted bulky roll with tater tots and sauteed green beans oh how yummy that sounds. I can't wait!

since i have been watching what i eat i have become obsessed with food eating good healthy food. food is the one common denominator for all people no matter what race you are or where you live we all eat food. well i seem to be yammering on a little here so i guess i will go now.

hmmmmmmm where to begin.....

let's see where should i start. well exactly one year ago this past Tuesday would have been the first date i went on with what is now my abusive ex boyfriend.... It was kind of a hard day. While i would never ever go back and i am glad to not be with him anymore when this relationship started it was very sweet and wonderful for like a month or so then it got bad......... well i made it through the day ( i had it off from work ) without any scars. yesterday the ass sent me a friend request on myspace i asked him why ( I know i shouldn't respond to him I just couldn't help it ) today he sent a message saying he wanted to be friends! he felt bad about how things ended! he wants to talk and fix it! he would feel better if we could reconcile how this ended and be friends! Umm how is this somehow about making him feel better? He abused me, he stole from me, he treated me bad, he tried to break me, these things can't be fixed. The fact that he thinks they can tells me that he just doesn't get it. IT WAS NEVER ABOUT HIM!

I know that over a camp fire in early October i let go of most of the horrible things he did but hearing from him right as that one year mark came up just made me real angry for a moment. I think i should probable just ignore him but i don't know if i should or if i should respond? and tell him how it really is cuz he's got no clue. He wants to be friends he should be happy i didn't press charges.

good choices

well i have decided that i need to start making good choices about what i eat. i am in a few high risk groups for things like diabetes and heart Diseases. i have tried a couple of times over the past several months to be more mindful about my eating but i didn't do so well. I heard about a web site called http://www.calorieking.com/ and thought i would check it out. It is a really cool web site you type in what you have eaten for the day and it adds up all of the calories and nutrients for you, you set goals for yourself, keep track of exercise. there are forums, blogs, food databases, resources, you get daily tips and advice. They will even generate a bar graph of calories, minerals, and nutrients that you have consumed if you want. for the time being i am really have a good time looking up stuff and seeing what i am taking in using this site. They have a 7 day free trial and it only cost $50.00 dollars for the whole year. Unlike other diets this site doesn't tell you to omit certain food groups it is based on the food pyramid and it just guides you in the right direction. I am hopeful that i will be able to stick with this long enough to get in the swing of things.

Voting day

well as we all know today is voting day, and this is a historic one. I went to vote before work today and i stood in line for 1 and 1/2 hours! I have never seen such a long line to vote before. I had very contrasting feelings about this long line i was standing in. On the one hand i was aggravated because i had to stand in line and would be late for work but on the other hand it was really nice to see that this many people were coming out to vote. I have been on the edge of my seat all day in anticipation of what the outcome will be. I will continue to sit on the edge of my seat until we know who our new president will be.